An intimate conversation between the reality star and her mom on the season’s finale of KUWK, Kim opened up about the state of her marriage to Kanye West. “I used to go to everyone for all the answers and all the problems. It’s draining,” Kim admitted. “I’m, like, an adult. I have a therapist. Let me work on myself and see where I’m at.”
Kim is striving for “total happiness a majority of the time” in her relationship.
“I just feel like I’ve worked so hard in life to achieve everything that I’ve wanted to and I’ve lived up to my expectations and achieved 10 times more than what I thought was humanly possible, but I don’t have a life to share that with,” Kim continued. “Am I just going to sit here and think, ‘OK my kids fulfill me and I’m good?’ I never thought I was lonely. I just thought that was totally fine, I can just have my kids.”
The long-distance relationship while Kanye was in Wyoming inevitably took a toll on the mother of four. “My husband moves from state to state. I’m just on this ride with him and I was OK with that,” Kim opened up. “And then after turning 40 this year, I realized like no, I don’t want a husband that lives in a completely different state.”
Kim admitted that she got along best with Kanye while they were apart…but that’s not what she wants out of a partner.
“I want someone that we have the same shows in common. I want someone that wants to work out with me,” Kim gives examples. “It’s the little things is what I don’t have. I have all the big things. I have the extravagant everything you could possibly imagine and no one will ever do it like that. I’m grateful for those experiences but I think I’m ready for the small experiences that will mean a lot.”
Kris comforted her daughter: “I just want you to be happy and joyful and I don’t think I’ve seen that in a really long time,” the momager added. “It breaks my heart because I just want them to be happy. I want her to be joyful and have the best relationship that she can possibly have. She has four beautiful kids so I just want them to be happy.”
“I’m numb. I’m tired of that. But I do know that I will be happy,” Kim hoped. “I didn’t come this far just to come this far and not be happy. Remember that.”
Kris applauded Kim’s strength, “You a very strong girl and you seem to handle everything really calmly.” “Calmness is my superpower,” Kim joked..